My passion for art started early in childhood. In my youth I earned a graduate degree in Applied Art, however, with children to raise and a job to hold, I found no time for artistic pursuits. I hoped that later in life I would be able to find the time to express myself as an artist. That time came in 2006 when I came from Romania to the United States, where my kids lived. Here I started a new phase of my life – a late painting journey.
I chose to express myself in painting because I could do it at home and conveniently transform my living place into an art studio. As a beginner I was overwhelmed and scared about the whole process, not knowing if I could handle the many demands of my chosen path. I wanted to find out if I could become a painter, and if I truly had something to say. I avoided classes and decided to find, more authentically, my own way. Not having painting experience, I spent a lot of time in the library reading books about art, watercolors, acrylic materials and process. I started drawing, wanting to improve my hand-eye coordination. Soon I acquired a new visual vocabulary and I tried to implement what I had learned into my work. I started with watercolor, mostly flowers, but also some landscapes, and discovered by chance the pleasure of painting on Yupo – a type of synthetic paper.
Two years later I moved to acrylics and tried to express myself in spontaneous imaginary composition. A visit to Puget Sound’s Jones Island enabled me to discover unusual beautiful rocks that triggered another series of paintings. Later I found a good source of inspiration in stumps and bark, observed while hiking in the forests. Painting them, I proved to myself that nature is the best teacher for an aspiring artist. Later, a fascination with “abstract” energy got a hold of me, and I began painting around that concept.
From the very beginning I was attracted to abstract art, but I understood that I could not jump directly into it. I needed to grow as an artist in order to approach it. I dreamed about painting in an abstract painterly style but that did not come easily to fruition. It came much easier to have a stylized, decorative, design style, somehow colder and rigid, determined from within me by my early construction, decorative studies. But this approach did not end up being satisfying to me.
While working I learned that I am mostly attracted to expressing myself spontaneously, to develop and mature my ideas directly on canvas, without prior sketches. The more bold and uninhibited I start, the more gates I unlock for imagination to flourish and bring out details. The result, most of the time, is abstracted with an organic touch. I was, and still am, fascinated by the way the creative process works; the way it extracts information from my background, and expresses itself through intuition – like coming from nowhere. I am an intuitive painter, more feeling than imagining what I want to say.
Now, eight years later, being on a clearer path, I am still challenged to find the best expression for my feelings. I am still chasing the state where my native openness and lyrical predisposition will freely translate into a spontaneous expression of flowing masses of colors and energetic, restless brush strokes. I want my art to be abstract, ambiguous, spontaneous, full of energy and flooded with colors. I am working on it, wanting to please my lonely spirit on this journey without a destination. (written in 2014)